Mark making and pattern making inspired by intrusive thoughts - further development

 Following on from my previous post, I wanted to continue the idea to create a few different patterns, based on the drawings I have done in my sketchbook. Each pattern is based on a theme of intrusive thought that I have experienced, and experience regularly, which many other Pure O suffers experience on the daily. The first one is harm related intrusive thoughts, which I decided to represent using a knife dripping with blood. I have simplified it a lot, taking away the element of colour, so that the viewer can concentrate on other elements, such as pattern, and repetition. Firstly, I used a digital drawing app to draw out a knife, which I have then copied and pasted, aligning it, to create a repeated pattern. I wanted to simplify the shape to abstract it more. The pattern can be seen below.

The next pattern was based on relationship based intrusive thoughts, which I have decided to represent using an image of a broken heart. To do this I use the same process as before, drawing it out by hand, then digitally, then copying, pasting, and aligning to create a repeated pattern. This one can be seen below.

The last one is perhaps the most abstract one. This is because had I drawn it accurately, it would have been rather graphic, and that is not what I was trying to achieve. The drawing was of a penis, and I thought that if I did not abstract it, it would not have been taken seriously. I did also make it abstract to make it more simplistic. I used the same process to create this as for the previous two patterns. This pattern is meant to represent sexual intrusive thoughts, another common theme I and many others experience.

During this process, I have learnt that I am not as bad at digital art as I thought I was. I definitely enjoyed this process, and it allowed me to learn more about the digital drawing app, "Krita", and drawing digitally in general, as I have not had much experience with that in the past. 

I think that my favourite outcome out of the three I have created is the last one, as it is the most simplistic, and the most abstracted. I think I successfully managed to transform my intrusive thoughts into drawings, and patterns, as well as portraying the idea of intrusive thoughts and OCD in general having a very repetitive nature, replaying frequently over and over again in ones head, which is shown through the repeating patterns.